Panic Rituals

Trembling hands holding a racing thought,

How much longer until we’re home?

I can’t believe I forgot my meds.

I’m such an idiot!

Who do I think I am that I can have a normal life?

Thoughts racing around on the coattails of a unbroken thoroughbred,

Trust me, there’s nothing ugly that you can say to me that I haven’t already told myself.

Took my meds two hours ago and my insides are shaking. When will they kick in???

Everyone is against me. Nobody loves me or likes me for that matter.

One hand stops trembling.

My sister loves me.

My heart slows down.

My friends love me.

The other hand quiets.

God loves me.

I am calm.

Peace; Be still.